"Most Things Haven't Worked Out"

Stir-fry'd electro-execution

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It's break time and I rush over to the "Chinese Express" for a bite. I sit down and I clasp my hands over my perpetually pre-re-heated fast-food medley bowl of fried rice, noodles, and beef and broccoli. I inhale and exhale, attempting to relax amid a loud-mouthed conversation of a woman reminding her mother about it being high-time to realize that she (the mother) is not young anymore: "you can't do what you used to do anymore. face it, mama."

Above my head the loudspeakers play some pop song that echoes in my mind and bounces around in my jelly thoughts; a code travels and spreads through soundwaves that concretize an encrypted message which crawls about in my rotten ectoplasmic brain. It's insane, but I start to feel itchy under my skin. I scratch all over but I cannot find the exact location of the itch. I start thinking that it's all psychosomatic. And I sing the tune like a recording machine, "goog goo, goo," etc.

The day is filled with sentence after phrase after fragment and so forth that accumulates into a gradual possession of every fractured fiber in my frail consciousness (or lack thereof).

Stir-fry'd electro-execution.

I roll a mass of noodles on my plastic fork and chew away, gnashing sloppy oily tube-dough fibers into a mushy paste. Into my esophagus. Into my own tube-dough entrails.

I have to hurry back to work.

Letter after letter after chinese fragment: my mind feels fagged and shagged from the old in-out-in-out of up and down turn turn turn around meet and greet sessions of 30 minute assessment. My body is running on e-cigarettes and lukewarm coffee. The belly is filled with liquid that bleeds into my lungs. Gasping for air, I explain and ask questions here and there, at this point almost everywhere, about sentence after sentence after...

sentence. The thoughts on the pages are splayed and stretched hurdy-gurdy with parchments and particles of disarrayed and organized squares, circles, and arrows in a concert of static coherence. As long as a mutual understanding is reached, the various scribbles and squiggly lines work for all.

The mesh of text accumulates into knots, twists, and turns that reflect my morning rituals: Invisible bandages and bonds that binds together people and my coherence. "Buenos Dias Don Roberto" "Buenos dias muchacho, hechale ganas" "no queda otra! take care!"I hop on the bus for an early morning round of elbows, assholes and dirty nasty flesh packed like sardines inside a humid metal truck. Hot breath and unwashed mouths heaving holy spirits that awaken the dead. The gym is a walk in the park in comparison to these type of post-modern work-outs.


2.
The day is done and now the headlines do their work. I log on before I head home for a quick wander through cyberspace.

The news spreads information about certain disruptions of violent, but also of rebellious, breakouts of particular individuals. But I try to dig deeper. Attempting to realize that these "particular individuals" evidence the fruit of experiMENTAL labor. Compartmentalized and goo-goo-gaa-gaa spoon fed certain data for certain output.

Mathemajix: PsychoKem.

I keep up on the silent battle called the Bay of Twitter, an experimentation in cyber war over in Cuba. Over in the UK, E-Day: Project Underlord. String theory at work: attempts by the Almighty State Saviours (ASS) to "affect the course of political process in the country." These words taken from the Joint Threat Research Intelligence Group (JTRIG), part of the british intelligence agency, Government Communications Headquarters (GHCQ). For what purposes? Well, i'm still trying to figure it out, All this Input: Output, on my spare time, of course.

But I think it might have to do with population control. 

There is a group of NASA scientist and Mathematicians that have collected data on past and current trends to predict the future.

They call it cliodynadimcs.

The mathematicians have these complex models that chart historical trends regarding sociopolitical instability. The NASA scientist have concluded that resources are diminishing at an extravagant rate. The mathematicians predict that by 2020 there will be a great likelihood of a peak in violence.

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And the preacher says we are living in end-times, given the recent earthquakes, etc.

Intellects or men of spirit, all seem to steer people into more artificially induced consumption of useless resources based on artificial wants and needs.

I start thinking that the Nazi's won after all. The U.S. took their scientist and their research, from everything to human experimentation and propaganda machinery manipulation.

Input: Output. Mathemajix: PsychoKem. it's going on online through little digital blue-birds chirping around every corner of the world and ad pop-ups in your social bubble network.

When I start making comparisons to Hitler's regime, I know it's time to shut down.

I need to stay away from the net. And, it's ability to induce and reinforce propogations of my self-induced mind virus creations. Stir-fry'd electro-execution.

There are various types of cognitive science theories that could pathologize and legitimize the "abnormalities" in my mental behavior (and with good reason too!):

The subject is psychotic. Clear case of delusion. He's snapped.
Clear case of apophenia and pareidolia. He's chasing moon rabbits. Persecutory delusion. Confirmation bias and Cognitive inertia. Oppositional Defiance Disorder. etc.

In these days that bleed into each other, time resembles a porous concrete curb.

And I don't have to travel to the "darknet" or by proxy to get the "surreptitious" information about collusions between money, power, and nationalism. The encryptions travel in plain sight, and sometimes there isn't any cryptography at all. No need to hide when the damage is done in plain sight.

I realize that I have been staring down at the curb the whole time, wondering about nothing, when a little roach, crawling in and out of the cracks of crooked lines and holes, called me back into the current time-zone. I sprinkle some breadcrumbs on the roach, who knows where it's been. I wonder if it is aware of how easily it can be stepped on out in the open; I wonder if it knows this?

3.
Everyday I walk uphill on Eastern Avenue past a painting that looks like Maria Felix; the painting of this woman is a bust; She's chopped at the breast and only her face, head tilted back and up, shows the Aztecan-Spanish features and rosy cheeks. Her Mestiza blood promotes the sales of a somewhat famous East Los chili brick, packed hot then frozen. "LA's Favorite Chili."

She wears a large black crown tiara, and she hangs a red rose over her left ear. The word "DOLORES" in white and red next to her.

My heart usually races at this point from the incline, but I look up to Dolores and I become distracted for a moment. The dust and foliage roused by cars and buses going uphill and downhill blast me on the face and peck my sticky skin. The whizzing VRrooom ZIiim adds to the whirlwind vortex of my dizzy spell from choking on dead leaves.

I finally reach my room. The small desk is cluttered in research articles and oddball theories from dark corners of the web. The only thing that reflects an image on my walls is a mirror. Everything else is bare. Empty cans of energy drinks line my shelve. I feel suffocated the more I think about the empty room. I have made no effort to claim it as mine. I refuse. I need not make an statement through extension, but the fact that nothing hangs ironically reflects a statement: emptiness.

And the emptiness intensifies, especially when I do not sleep at night. Tossing and turning. Seeing nothing. Feeling nothing. If there is any feeling it is that I feel stupid. yes yes...that must be it.

I recollect fragmented memories that keep me up (with these types of thoughts who needs coffee!). Was it the shattered glass in the middle of the night? could it have been the yells I heard coming from the walls? Or the banshee screams and bloodstreams that made my skin tighten and the heart stop, for a minute, as I rushed to the restroom where I found a little girl crying over a stream of her blood? Or perhaps it was the maniacal hysterics of a desperate mother yelling Help! Help! and running out of her home with a rag-doll child in her arms. Or the young boy waiting inside the car for his superhero that was getting wasted inside the bar?

Stir-fry'd electro-execution. These thoughts fill the emptiness with a loud silence. Where is my family? Lost Angeles. Dismembered. Dis-remembered. Severed. Dreams of drugs and violence. Not even in my own subconscious thoughts can I find sanctuary. Waking up with a feeling that something is missing. Dreams mean nothing. nothing. A Terrifyingly terrific silence of nothing (Actually, I probably dream (studied scholars state that we dream every night), but don't recall any of them, either due to terrible memory or the fact that my brain is filled with nonsense...yeah, probably the nonsense).


After a few days of irregular sleep patterns, the sense of senselessness intensifies. Headaches and dizzy spells shake my mind and eyesight left and right. Vertigo, I believe it's called. Entropy, I prefer to call it. Either way, it's all signaling a slow unwinding. A great fall, perhaps. 

But it's just another day.

We set-up programs

The kid drew an airplane crashing into a building. The teacher called the cops. The child was taken for examination. He said he saw it on the Tell-u-Veesion. It was in the VeeDee-o-games. It was in the Myou-sick. That it was in the Pain-tings, etc.

The glass in front of him was covered with a film of one-way privacy mirror. On one side the kid faced his reflection, while on the other a number of professional types diced with his fate. Probabilities and culpabilities. What could it be? They moved back and forth, texting their spouses, children, and lovers that it was going to be a long night. At the bottom of the glass, it read, "objects in mirrors are closer than they appear."

Outside the mother wept like a banshee and the father talked to authority types. The father stammered, "I filed Goddamn it!"

We paid our taxes and did our jobs. Perhaps we didn't do so well, but we did them. We paid and we paid. And, we set-up programs. We set-up goddamn it! We set-them-up real good.

The sister posted on the anti-social-web:
"What a snobby fucking brat! last night I cut my wrist and I don't get any of this sentimental revolution bullshit."

Underneath, the tectonic plates were slowly shifting.

The kid, given crayons and construction paper, reviewed his national anthem:
I pillage alleged....I gape a village...I ape..all...egiance...I pledge allegiance...

"look! look! let us examine...ah there! look, the form reveals the content, his scribbles...those jittery letters; the nervous system"

"no doubt his parents must be associated with a very powerful terrorist organization"

The child continued:
of...of...the Unit-

The sudden earthquake stopped everyone in their tracks. Everything loosened and came apart. Many attempted neutrality, balancing in place and maintaining their bearings. Lastly, the glass shattered, and the kid came face to face with his assessors.

Sketch 'n time: manikins & figurines

You see them around, these time-zoner's, flowing back and forth in their to-go bubbles of set disposition. Their movement yields an appearance that obscures the rigidity of their spellbinding trance-fixation.

These manikins, these...figurines, if you will, follow the trends and flow in the anti-currents of atemporality while being RF-Eye'd and computerized, effectively gauged and measured into a capsule that reflects a (com)pressurized profile--Sorted, stored data.

Your own ideas start to work against you because they (your ideas) supply others with enough precise information to manufacture the tools necessary for capitalization, and capitulation, through optic nerve exploitation.

The experts of steganography (forgive a mere fool for having used such a term) place their digital and physical foot-and-head prints all around us--in the space field of our immediate surroundings. Decoding the imbedded cryptographies becomes the task of the paranoiac, who mostly carves against the anticurrents of time. He warns of the subtle programming communicated in the plain open, but the words fall flat like tinkling cymbals and sounding brass, which makes good music for ridicule and for the mass: kshh-shh, kshh-shh, hoo-hoo, hoo-hoo, as Everyone satisfactorily bubbles in their uni-spheres.

The girl in the cute skirts expresses an air for times of past. She likes ye olden poetry and exudes a passionate desire for that type of romanticism of the late 18th century. She read to me from her mini-tele-phonic device, "In the southern clime, / Where the summer's prime / Never fades away, / Lovely Lyca lay." And What does the speaker in the poem mean by southern clime? I asked. A time of timelessness, she answered, taking in a full breath and exhaling to show her state of relaxation. Her friend walked in and handed her a poem. Her friend writes poetry. His poem alluded to the greeks, and the Geats, and their feats, and their massive fleets. What philosophy! what might! such tragedy, and comedy!

He said, I didn't even know I was doing that, ho-hum! 
She always smiled and pushed up against him. Look, could you help me in understanding this question. It was a simple answer, he said, as he pointed to the issue in her problem while the girl rubbed her breast on his forearm, which served as a repellant that caused him to push off as nicely as he could without seeming rude.

The other one, She eats her lunch while wearing sunglasses most of the time. She often waves hello and shows you her pearly whites. Her hair is in the shape of two braids, intertwined and sometimes tangled, which she decorates with a daisy. Her lips shine a dull red that matches the cherry lollipops that she likes to suck. She moves in and out from the Station of the Hieroglyphs. A place dedicated to the improvement of the written word.

There is another one. Her pale water colors mask the face that cannot hide the speck in her abstracted eyes. She recognizes the sawdust in mine. She comes in searching for Michaelangelo high renaissance online. She knows the paintings well. She seems to be the only one that truly arrests the time, if not for herself then at least for others. She's a walking paradox; her ability to become more than a sketch 'n time--manikin or figurine--renders her unto a time-space on a canvas of a still life. Guys go goo-goo ga-ga gargling gape mouthed and jerking with galactorrhea, praying and screeching Hail Mary.


At the end of the day, the lights are turned off. Everything gets unplugged, and everyone carries home their burdens. They plug in again, perhaps for a bit of distraction (who understands these impulses that drive our addiction(s)), and effectively forget about time. Some lose time. Some attempt to capitalize on time. Some even try to catch up with time. And detached because of a sense of senselessness, disoriented by a whirlwind, you see them the next day, with all the knowledge in the world and no sense of time in history, further trans-fixed in their bubble-sphere, reading ye olden poetry, singing in the rat-race choir of classics and ageless masterpieces.

Burroughsian Echoes

The text is a fleshy image. In the beginning was the word, and the bird is the word. The Chinese seem to have this figured out, so did the Egyptians. Word as image, like little birdies etched onto a tablet or parchment of papyrus. Blocks of information contained in a symbol that captures the thing and the abstraction.

You will be reading these image sequences that are void of any film. Text reflects an image, and indeed, words make up a symbol system that is ultimately recognizable as images. When one reads, they are seeing images in a film sequence. The point of this movie is to show you the real behind the reel, which may be nothing but a mere show.  So sit back and don't relax. What I am about to tell you is intended to condition, perhaps de-CONdition, your mind.

You have all the necessary equipment.

When you have a tool, it only becomes a matter of proper priming for my usage. With enough triggers, I may be able to establish control, but control implies a controller, which means a captain needs to be in the driver seat at all times. But a controlled subject becomes a tool irrefutably when the tool applies its usages and operations on its own. In other words, no control is needed for a tool that is ruthlessly, completely controlled. In fact, such a "subject," or rather object, can operate mechanically and automatically. With enough suffusion of proper imagery, the film can be set to re-play the word and verbs necessary for my, or anyone else's, benefit. In fact, when fully taped, the movie can replay and replay and replay and replay. Like this: replayerplayerplayerplayer. The thought or idea of control becomes foreign to the subject-object. Thus, full and effective control can best be seen in the object that operates under the impression of subjectivity.

The recording device is in your mind; the film records in your brain, in the hippocampus, the "hem;" What I choose to implant and impress will follow in these next images:

A clown on a date with a gorilla.
A monkey on a children's playground
Zombies on a train plugged into Computers
Animals packed inside line 70A from DTLA
Vultures tossing out bones of a lifeless carcass

These snippets of movies lack plot. They are but compressed images broken down to their savage nakedness. The point: to umask the reel. The real deal: Barbaric savages posing as civilization. With these snippets I have captured and recorded time, just like any other recording device. I have shown you the world as it is, as my camera has captured it. Brief, indeed. For the purpose of a brief point. Here's the reminder: The world has been darkened by Atomic Power. The world has been disconnected by the wide-web-inter-net-work. The movie has been shaped meticulously so as to render a tragic ending. This movie has no happy ending. All of the stories end the same: Death. You start at point A, then move through B (something interesting might happen), then you die at C. Look at the setting of your film. Look at the Actors and note the roles. The real transmutes into a surreal reel. Check the reel, then re-check it. Note the psycho enviro-science that is hidden in plain sight.

Do YOu REally think yoU DIRECT the fILm in your mind?

"My lover is experiencing reverse evolution...I don't know how it happened, only that one day he was my lover and the next he was some kind of ape. It's been a month now he's a sea turtle."
-Aime Bender, The Girl in the Flammable Skirt.

spacewalker

The whole absurdity of life and its all too seemingly designed, deceptively random, distribution of violence came into full perspective for a moment as I perceived the playfulness of children on a cloudy evening.

They ran around, over, under, and into the labyrinths of steel bars and plastic swings, sometimes barely missing a head-on collision with each other or the structures around them.

They twisted into and out of the monkey bars, playing and laughing shamelessly without a care in the world. Their innocence quickly shifted to violence, and then suddenly turned to forgiveness, and finally reverted back to playfulness.

Some remained in front of the swing, declaring themselves the slide kings: You may pass, you cannot; you are too ugly, and so on. Since many others simply ignored these "slide king" kids, they whizzed by and slid down before they could be caught; this angered the one's playing superintendent, but after a while, when no one was playing their games, they switched their tune: they grew angered and attempted to force the rules or started playing with everyone else.

Some tripped, hit their foreheads, but stood back up and joined the ensemble of shameless laughing and crying.

The see-saw went hee-haw as groups bunched more than 4 onto each side, crushing and suffocating each other and laughing.

A group came out from behind the steel rock-climb wall and ran past the two biggest kids that were arm wrestling; the group was chasing a boy and a girl. Leave us alone, the girl yelled, and she threw sand at them while the boy pulled her another direction; it was merry and all in good fun.

Some got mad, some got even, some got lost, many got lost. Those lost turned to each other, and then to another who pretended to know what was going on, for directions. You stand here, and wait, and wait, and renew your strength, and I will be good to those who wait, he said, as he went off to venture into what grounds he could cover.

The playground asphalt grew hot and terrorized their tiny feet; they hop-scotched and hoped for a stabler concrete that could easily provide better footing. They gathered, I fancied, and marched over to the parks and recreation office, demanding better play-grounds. It's not fair, and you exists for our needs they chanted. The man in the coat, bowler hat, and tiny mustache replied, Kiddies, listen, life is not fair. You must tough it out and be brave, face life! like me!

As I was lost in this tiny thought of children protesters, I heard a voice calling;

Hey mister! hey mister! a young boy yelled as I looked up at the sky in confusion and awe. What am I doing here? Pass the ball back mister.

I kick the ball over to him, and he resumes the game.

I start walking back home and on the way I see a police car pull over a man dressed as a clown. Nearby an elotero squeezes his horn hahh-hee-hahh-hee and his cart trembles over the pavement of cracked and pothole riddled asphalt. The clown glances my way and he looks awfully sad despite the make up on his face that outlines a smile. The officer approaches him, shining his flashlight. He makes the clown step out, asking why he seems to be acting so strange. The man replies, "ain't you ever seen a clown before?" to which the officer replies with a bludgeon to the man's forehead. The clown starts wobbling like a penguin, dazed from a blunt pop-pow to the skull.

I start laughing and the cop turns his thirst onto me, giving me a wide smile. Soon, more cop cars arrive in their black and white time capsules to get in on the clown.
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These black and white sources of 19th century romanticism and raw, unreserved experience mete out ka-pow's and thwacks with extreme prejudice on mere chance and whim to complete strangers. 

They patrol the battleground of concrete jungles and surveil the run-down structures of cracked houses and creaking apartments. Some of the dwellers, properly pressurized, grow compressed and depressed, reflecting the violent condition of the madhouse and gradually metamorphosing into monkeys, dogs, cats, and rats; this tends to justify confinement into a kennel.

They establish their presence and set up centers of power wherever in whatever patch of asphalt they choose. This is Rodney King. This is deaf-mute beat by being misread. This is pre-emptive attack that aims it's violent force beyond the physical. This is discipline and punishment. This is madness. This is shameless. This is comedy. This is where I lose any sense to try to make sense of the irrational. This must be something I simply cannot comprehend. This is something I refuse to logicize. This is Kurtz. Over. Kurtz, do you read me? Kurtz's turds, Over. Oh, The Joy! The Bliss! This is me running fucking wild in a tight uniform and a hard-on for sadism. I am not the saint, or the devil; I am the clown and the cop...I am here for you! They might not know why they are patrolling and going to meetings, but I do, I'm here for you!

To Protect and Serve, Law and Order, in the name of Justice, Equality, and Freedom. yatta yatta.

Power to the police! power to the police! brrr! I raise my fist, they raise theirs. We are all together in this fight! yatta yatta.

Together, we will re-form! follow me! I am the KOP! pop pop! yatta yatta! I have the new rules, no rules! follow me! me! me who is you! You who is them! them who is we! we we! we we we! ya ta! ta! ta!

I will show how you how all these terms ring hollow against the crack of a polycarbon club to the skull. I will fill your nights with music and joy! My baton will make the night sing with the crying screams of clowns and laughs of power drunkards! together, yes together! In our tight tights. Sweaty and warm and oh oh oh! yatta! ya! ya! ya!

You see...
After the cops haul you in and take you to the madhouse. You have the right to remain laughing. See...They, the warden and the criminals, must return to their lives and head back to their houses and children, if any. Stainless steel cells, concrete walls, wood or plaster...it's all in the design.

One in the same, it's all insane, the one reflects the other in some manner and vice versa, only the label differs, only the name, which go by other associations but smell the same...it's all in the design:


~LAPD X3 VATOS LOKOS~
CHIEF AZUL
MISTER PAYASO
COLONEL KURTZ
~DO NOT PASS GO~


This madness reflects the nonsense conscience of a war torn vet, which, as "professionals" might add, makes much sense when taking trauma into account.

I should do something at this moment, but an immediate response invites a justification to bludgeon me directly...it's all in the design. I don't know very much about this law that they profess and have sworn to protect. I continue down the block minding my own business while everyone peeks out for the chisme. 
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I'm out here, spacewalker, without any sense of place in the nospace of subspace. In a galaxy far far away. In a barrio in an other time and space. Consumed by the mechanix of gravity and unprovoked pressure of external forces. Is this God? the Great Unsettling that took place 13.798±0.037 billion years ago? Things tend to move in this manner: For every reaction there is an equal and opposite action, according to the Laws. Even more, for every reaction there seems to be the illusion of movement and action. Masked underneath the revolution exists the fractal that revolves around and around we go, where does it stop? nobody knows...

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This life deals unconditional doses of pain and joy, equally and without reserve or regret, but somehow I'm convinced that the grand architect is out there, to lunch somewhere, will be back in 30mins. I see it in the language that carries a structure that promotes a type of subjectivity that conditions the manner in which the public receives information (this language thus renders the subject object), but these are just "learned, cultured" theories inculcated in institution of big brain ink. Reduction of Eduction for education stations, Althusserian state apparati, I think (or do I?).

If Bill Burr where there and saw what I saw, he wouldn't be surprised at the extended whacks of the State via police bludgeon. Bill Burr, The Cosmonaut of Inner Space, that so called Godfather of Punk, would remind that the Word impacts the nervous system. The Word impacts the barrio, my community, through the forceful reminders of its power in the Black and White ink of blunt force trauma. The Word, palabra!

Here, look there, Pornification of the nation! Sex and Violence! Sex and Violins! Sex and Vile! Can you feel it? of course not, the nature of its power remains in its cunning subtlety of neutralizing with the internalization of Word. I see it in the language that carries a structure that promotes a type of subjectivity that conditions the manner in which the public receives information (this language thus renders the subject object). If Bill Burr where there, he wouldn't be surprised at the extended whacks of the State via police bludgeon, nor of the current findings in neurolinguistics. Bill Burr, The Cosmonaut of Inner Space, Godfather of Punk, would remind that the Word impacts the nervous system. The Word impacts the barrio, my community, through the forceful reminders of its power in the Black and White ink of blunt force trauma.

Here, look there, Pornification of the nation! Sex and Violence! Sex and Violins! Sex and Vile! Can you feel it? of course not, the nature of its power remains in its cunning subtlety of neutralizing with the internalization of Word...

...fuck the revolution! 

Fuck it! look...here are some more abstraction reactions.

There is a discarded leaflet beneath my sole. I pause to pick it up; it contains formulated text that convey the message of a new age of spiritualism.

There are many of these new age spiritualist wandering nowadays preaching that the Spiritual age is at hand, and that it is time for a wake up call, and that the way we are living is not healthy for the earth, but they are lost in the inner space. There is a quote by some so called Krishnamurti: "It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society" ha! haha! hahaha! hahahahaha! No wonder I'm so ill at ease. But I'm not sick. There is nothing wrong here. This is the program. This is how it's been.




The Iron and the Intellectual still rule, mightily, crushing the airheads and awarding those able to best manipulate the Word-organism to entertain and enthrall and spellbind. That is why I pray every morning, I plead the 5th and concede to a shell of a man, I am too weak and too stupid to open my mouth in the age of the Iron and the Intellect:

Sana sana colita de rana! Everyone! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana!Sana sana colita de rana!Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana! Sana sana colita de rana!

Someday, someday, keep patient, I tell myself. And good things yatta yatta. God helps those who help themselves, so I'll help myself to my goal at any means necessary. Paradox? perhaps, do you know the mind of God? just wait and see...Silence is consent, silence is golden, Silence is...Paradox? perhaps...just wait...just wait...I'm reading my pedagogy of the depressed..."come on Harding, play the game. Play it!" they tell me, I say to you, that I say to them,  "I am playing the game! Cease interrupting! I can't concentrate!"...."play the game! c'mon play the game!"...just wait, just you wait on these empty threats!

I looke away from the smile and arriving cars. Behind me, a man screeches and weeps. There are muffled words struggling to escape the throat: mm...pp..ppl..ppoleeesee...ay!!!!

I walk forth to the sound of static from radios and silence of no wind. The moon seems beautifully bright tonight, delicate and perfectly floating in its wandering, plotted, plight.

I shake the pathetic fallacy blues and walk toward further nonsense. I walk toward a joy and a pain worth living. I get my head out of the clouds and start focusing on the walk toward production and reproduction. There is much to do, I must hurry up. Goodnight, good bye. There are places to go and angels and demons to meet; I must perfect the art of peripheral movement. I must find, carve, fill with meaning and purpose out there, here, somewhere of nowhere. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust, all lepers, rejects, cops, and clowns go to heaven. There is nothing here now. nothing but kipple. junkware. Go forth now, go forth gogogo! go forth and seek the lotos for all I care. Good night and nighty night. tick tock tick tock.  See you in the front lines. Ta Ta!

Reference(s) and allusion(s):
Franz Kafka
Harry Gamboa
Ken Kesey
T.S. Eliot
William Burroughs
and other's I definitely forgot.